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June 16, 2009

Holy cow. It's been...three months. Over three months. I am so awful. I can't even begin to apologize. *sigh* Well, here's an update.

School's over until August. It's great to have a break, but right now I'm just trying to find another job. The one I have at the school is great and I love it, but I'm just not getting the hours I need, so I'm looking for a second job. We'll see how that all works. I'm trying to find a place, but no luck so far. Hopefully tomorrow I can find something.

My birthday was last week. I'm 21! I can't believe I'm that old. It's just astonishing to think about. I can still remember my 18th so clearly and then, I was like "Holy cow, I'm 18." Now, three years later, I'm getting a little worried. I mean, I'm living on my own, working for my meals, going to school. Two years from now, I'll have my Bachelor's. I'll be teaching two years from August, as in no longer a student. That kinda really scares me.

But it's alright. I have two years to get used to the idea, and I'm sure I'll feel about it when it happens, rather than looking that far into the future. Right now, I'm sitting in Barnes & Noble, enjoying my sweetened iced black tea. Interesting. It's so weird to see how much things can change in a year. Last year, I was chilling with my family. Living with my family. And now. On my own, 200 miles south of home. It's crazy.

I got a digital camera for my birthday! I'm so excited. Now I can start taking pictures and whatnot, which I miss so much. I can't wait to break it out and just photograph everything. One of these days I'm going to get pictures of my campus. It's going to be awesome.

Well, writing wise it's been interesting. I'm stuck in a funk, but I've been writing little scenes here and there. I'm working now on just getting my mind figured out and then I'll try and sit down and write something that I can post, rather than just the blurbs that I've been penning down. And it's really funny. For the last few chapters of Hunted, I've had to get on my computer and just type. Now, I get on and open a Word document, and the page stays blank. But the moment I open a notebook and grab a pen, I have three pages written before I stop and realize what just happened. It's so weird. I guess it's just what I need to do. Too much time on the Internet where I can pay attention to many different things at once, but when I'm writing, I can only concentrate on that.

Which to me is a pretty good explanation. I've had so many things in my head lately (as in, the last five months) and it's been crazy. I can't calm down or anything. But once I sit down with a pen and paper, I'm in my own world and it's great.

That's another thing. I need books to read. I want something suspensful and engaging. I want something supernatural, but if I see one more vampire, I'm going to vomit. Twilight has ruined the selection of supernatural books as now everything is about vampires. It's driving me insane. I want to go back to the supernatural that was before Meyer brainwashed half of the world with her glittering, fanged leeches. I want books that go back to what Anne Rice did. Where they encompassed the darkness of the supernatural world and worked with that.

And yet I can't find it anywhere. At least, I can't find it 'cause I've already read what I have found like that. It's...ugh. I'm frustrated. I need something to help me with Hunted, and glitter doesn't do it. Hunted is nothing if not dark. I know I haven't gotten too far into the meat of the story line, but it's one freaking dark plot and I need something to feed off of. Maybe I'll go home and watch Underworld. Now that is one awesome supernatural world. God, I miss stories like that.

Now I really want to write something dark. This might be promising.

<3Nikki